It has been a while since I have posted anything here.  I have been both busy and lazy.  During this time, a question kept nagging me.  What is happiness, and why aren’t we always happy?  That is a questions I have struggled with over the last year.

First off, what is happiness?  Is it a state or a decision?  Can you be happy and still have other emotions that might be considered negative?  I think the answer to all of those is yes.  Happiness is a state of being where you are at least content with where you are at.  Sometimes, it is a decision to be happy.  Many people say, “fake it until you make it,” but the problem with that is you start believing you are happy when you really are not.  This causes people to settle for things in life that make them unhappy.

So, why are we not all happy  all of the time?  Life.  I have been divorced, lost my job, and sued in a short manner of time.  No matter what, I always looked at the positives.  These life events made me realized a few things.  I was not happily married.  I found myself angry and upset most of the time at home.  That job I was eliminated from?  I hated it.  I only stayed there because they paid me too much to do very little actual work, but the job and culture turned toxic years ago.  The lawsuit?  Well, that was not really my fault, but that is the reason I carry insurance.

What does all of this prove?  Probably nothing, but to me it proves that bad things happen in life.  Sometimes, just sometimes, it makes you realize you were not happy after all, and it shows you why not.  From there, you can do things that make you happy and not repeat the mistakes of the past.  Working for myself might not pay as well, but I do not have to worry about coat-riding fucktards that get all of the credit for work they never did while I get told to do less work so some foreigner can take my job.  I might not be in the best place and really happy yet, but I am in a much better place than I was last year.  I’ll take it.


American is becoming paranoid, yet completely ignorant.  Take the matter on guns and gun control.  It is so engrained in our culture the be able to own and use guns, but people forget that.  Thirty years ago, it was acceptable to bring your rifle and ammo to school so you and a couple of buddies could squirrel hunt after.  I am sure there were school shooting back then, but maybe not as many.  Then again, at schools where this was possible were much less “congested” with students with a lot less pressure from both society and other students.

Should there be gun control?  Sure…. to a limited point.  We do not want violent criminals or people with mental issues carrying a bunch of guns an ammo.  Guess what?  We already have those laws on the books.  What about drug dealers?  Those laws exist too.  I was reading an article in American Rifleman where given a scenario (very possible) if the law were to be enforce, this person would spend over 1,000 years in jail for violating gun laws.  If we need more laws, fine, but let’s first enforce the ones we have before we create any more.

Most of us who legally carry a firearm respect the law and obey it.  We’re not shooting up schools, banks, or store.  Almost all of the time, the person who commits these acts has already violated the law and should have already been pushed.  Next think you know, they’ll start banning knives and require permits to have kitchen knives because those can be jut as deadly as gun.

Trilogy Done

It has been a few weeks since the last post.  I have not been lazy.  Between school, work, the son’s football, and getting the books finished up, it has been rather crazy.  Regardless, The Amanai Resistance: Second Edition and The Amanai Resolution have been completed and are available on Amazon.  This means the trilogy is complete.  I might do a spin-off of The Event series, but that will have to wait until things settle down.  Unless I start doing cocaine, I am going to need sleep at some point.

What Day Is it?

I know I have stated many times that I have been very busy.  Some things are starting to calm down.  In a week, the cows will be taken to the butchers.  That is a good thing as the basement project, although finished, has put me in the hole a bit.  The Amanai Resolution is done and edited.  I have to admit that I feel a bit more calm as of late, but that could be the whiskey.  Either way, I feel relaxed and much better than I have in a long while.  That will probably all disappear in a few days, but I will take it while I can.

Productive Weekend

Saying this weekend was rough is a bit unfair.  It was a good weekend, but it was packed full.  Most importantly (to this site anyways) was the completion and publication of The Amanai Deception.  That was huge for me.  The school work was time consuming.  Two short papers and reading a chapter takes a toll on my mental abilities.  I even had time to build and install a rain catching system for the cows.  I just have to run pipe to finish that up.  I cannot forget the movie with the family.  It was definitely not my first choice, but it is the family time that matters most.  Here’s hoping this week is much better than last week’s cluster.

Prime Offender

I am almost an anti-technology preacher.  I think technology is going to ruin us.  We will become so dependent on it, that when it fails, it will be catastrophic.  The human species will not know what to do without it.  It almost makes me sick that I bought a Microsoft Band.  All I wanted was something that tracked my sleep.  My sleep cycles suck.  I am rested enough to be functional, but I know it can be better.  Collecting data is the first step in fixing it, but this thing is too damned “cool.”  It connects to my Windows Phone and shows who’s calling, the texts that just came across, the emails in my inbox, alarms from my phone, the UV intensity, weather, etc.  If it wasn’t so useful, I would throw it away as another technology sucking us in.  I guess my only comfort is that I am aware of this.  Most people are a slave to technology but are clueless about that fact.

All Three In One

It was a busy weekend for me as far as the books are concerned.  Some changes were made to The Amanai Resistance for the second edition.  There were some inconsistencies in how I wrote certain things.  I cannot believe no one caught them.  Oh well, they are fixed now.

The Amanai Deception is a third of the way through final editing.  It is taking much longer than I would like, but truth be told, I have not had much time to actually make the fixes.  As anxious as I am for this, I do not seem to put for the necessary effort to get through it.

The Amanai Resolution is now written through chapter eight.  I am making some changes to the later chapters than what I originally thought, but I think it will be for the better.  I am sure a few people will not like the twists and turns, but nothing in life is 100% super for everyone.

You Get What You Pay For

I am a firm believer in you get what you pay for, but there are limits.  You can buy a new car for $15,000.  It will not be fast, luxurious, or even pleasurable to drive, but it is a car.  You can get a very nice car for $30,000.  You can also spend $2,000,000 on a new car, but it probably is either super luxurious with 24 karat gold trim and other unneeded items or a supercar that is the fastest on the planet but is horrible to drive on slow city streets.  Buying something because of a name is stupid.  Buying something because that name represents quality is another story.  I believe in buying quality; not wasting money buying into a brand.

A New Year

A new year brings new resolutions (or old ones for those of us who did not keep them) and new opportunities.  We are what we make ourselves.  There will always be challenges in our way, but we can generally overcome them.  Giving up is an option but a poor one.  Anything other than triumph is an excuse.  The final outcome does not always end up like we want, but any good that comes from the journey can help us complete our ultimate goals.  We just need to not be a bunch of sissy-asses that give up when things get tough.

BS Holidays

I complained a bit about National Cat Day a while ago.  Today is National Pickle Day.  Why?  What the hell am I supposed to do or be grateful about pickles?  Some pickles are good; some are not.  Holidays like Thanksgiving, Christmas, Independence Day (talking US holidays now), Veteran’s Day, Memorial Day, Easter (Pascha) all have reason.  Some are Christian holidays that have taken another approach for a broader market.  Still, there is meaning and a reason behind it.  Other religions have holidays that have reason.  But National Pickle Day is an example of some bullshit holiday someone made up for some dumbass reason.  The only BS holiday that is even productive is National Talk Like a Pirate Day.  The only reason I can even tolerate that day is because we all, for a brief moment, get to live out our fantasy of being a pirate if only in language.  Scurvy, although a nasty disease, is a neat word to say that becomes an adjective in an insult.